You are the one who made fighting the distance seem so easy. You always make me smile and it always feel certain that you’ll always be around. We spent so many late night talks that I thought would never end. You are my inspiration for three whole years. What I didn’t know is, why did everything between us suddenly stopped?
Up until now, I’m seeking for answers … I’m looking for clear reasons … I’m hoping for a closure … But I haven’t got any. I haven’t heard anything from you since my 21st birthday. And it hurts that I still think of you everyday. I wonder what you’re into right now … Or if I even cross your mind. I really don’t know how to make this hurting stop. I need answers from you. Are you mad? Did I do something wrong, or maybe stupid? I’m not a psychic or a fortune teller. I cannot guess what’s in your mind. What went wrong?
Well someday I wish you realize that there’s someone who’s waiting for your explanation. For a closure. I will let you go if you want me to. All I need is for you to tell me to.
I’m still waiting …
I’m still hoping …
I’m still hurting.
We write our own story by the decisions we make in life …
I believe that everyday, God gives us a chance to be a better person than who we are yesterday. He gives us endless chances until we choose to be on the right path. This is what I realized three years ago. I realized that life wouldn’t always give me cotton candies. I thought life is easy. I thought it’s perfect with rainbows and butterflies. Then, it was three years ago when I began to open my eyes. When I began to see a bigger picture of life.
Not everyone sees life as I do. Not everyone is as optimistic as I am. That is the time that I realize that I have to open my mind, because not every person that I will meet is the same as I am. We have different stories, issues, challenges, and pains. But for me, no matter where we are coming from, we are all given one same choice … and that is to be happy.
We should always be grateful because we are alive. We breathe, we smile, we cry, and we still have so many chances on life. No matter how hard, no matter how painful, and no matter where life would take us … always choose happiness. Remember that God will not give us challenges that we cannot overcome. It’s His way of making us a stronger person. Just always be thankful for every chance we get, and always choose to be a better person every day. 🙂